From Shunya to Ananta
These infinite spiritual journeys of mine can never end. The more frequent the journeys the deeper the bond that I share with the divine. I will keep oscillating from Shunya to Ananta, keep taking birth after birth till I attain salvation, liberation, Moksha which is the ultimate bliss that I yearn for.
And I don’t really know if I will reach that ultimate bliss in this birth or the next or the next one either. I don’t know if I will grow into a better human being. And I don’t know if I will ever be able to outgrow all my fears, hungers and illusions.
Somehow that seems too distant and too lofty a goal to pursue. I am content with the bliss that I experience with my bhakti even if it only for a brief span of time. One step at a time, every day, slowly but surely, sometimes going ahead with zeal, sometimes going backwards, sometimes retreating, sometimes taking a break, sometimes hibernating…..I march on like the tortoise of Yamunaji…till I reach Krishna. I focus on just the next step and leave the rest to Him. I am a Shunya. Krishna is beside me. Yamunaji is within me. Together we march on from Shunya to Ananta to reach the infinite state of bliss. Together. Two Shunyas make infinity, Ananta. When Krishna is beside me – I feel safe. I feel safe. I feel safe. Ananta, infinity does not seem too distant now.
Shree Krishna Sharanam Mama
Shree Krishna Sharanam Mama
Jai Shree Krishna Sharanam Mama….
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The Nimit
I had a lot of respect for her. She was my head. But somehow I never felt I was working for her. I felt as if I was working with her. She did the weirdest of things just like me.
This is something that happened well over a decade ago. One day, she handed me a small crisp card made out of handmade paper. The art department must have given her a bunch of such cards to use. So the design did not mean much to me. She had written only 4 words on it – “I am just a nimit”
Frankly, at that time, I did not know what it meant. It looked good and sounded nice. I still have the card with me. But it makes more sense to me now. She never took credit for the work she did. Because she knew she was just a mere instrument in Krishna’s hands. She was humble and did her work with passion.
I have lost touch with her. But she will always remain a part of me. Yes, she, like me was just an ordinary human being doing her best at all times. And I will always respect her for that.
I too am just a nimit – an instrument – who wrote this book. I wrote it for myself more than anybody else. But I hope that does not make me selfish. I wish to share my experiences, my observations, my learnings with you. That is all. I am an ordinary human being, just like you – who had a fleeting divine experience. And I hope I was able to connect to you. I hope you were able to connect to the divinity that resides within you while reading this book. And I hope you are able to find your own path to your own version of God after reading this book. I found a lot of bliss while writing this book. And I hope you find your share of bliss in your life too.
∞Jai Shree Krishna. ∞
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